If someone would have told me, I wouldn't have believed it.
I'm content (BUT not complacent).
Before I went to church today, especially after feeling bad yesterday, I decided not to allow this situation to get me down.
I admonished myself "Get to church on time, Yolanda. No matter what, don't be late"
I walked in church with a smile on my face. I had barely combed my hair and didn't feel my best, but I was there.
All morning I knew I wanted to go to church, but I had to fight my flesh the whole time. Just lie around. You need your rest... People will understand, besides, you're homeless remember?! You're so tired and you have so much to do! I couldn't give in to it. I had to leave...
soooooo
I dragged my flesh to church. It didn't want to go. My spirit man was so eager to get into the house of the Lord, I couldn't suppress it.
After carting Miah off to the nursery (we literally had to chase him down). Jay and I got into the sanctuary early enough to get a seat up close (that's very rare in my church).
Worship time was fantastic. I love worship music and my church does more of that than anything else. Let me adore Him. Let me bow before him; kneel at his feet...worship...I love it!
I didn't give my present situation another thought and I jumped around like I had won the lottery.
Ahhhh, the peace of God!
No one judging me. No more of the "h" word. No more explaining myself. No more telling people how I feel. I was justified and no longer felt the need to justify myself
I will tell each of you something (and this is going to sound a little deep too...please give me a second):
I have been through so much in my life that there is nothing I blame God for. I know He loves me and that He's with me and I don't at all (not even a little bit) feel that He's testing me to see if I can make it. LOL! He already knows I can and will make it. He knows what my make-it looks like. So, as I stood there during praise and worship, especially worship, I felt like a new woman. Then I realized something: I am rich in purpose and my pockets will soon catch up with the riches I already have in spirit.
When pastor began to minister, it was apparent that I was in line with what God wanted me to feel. It was the same thing I've been saying on Facebook all year: "You are fearfully and wonderfully made! God knows your name. We serve a God that wants to see us prosper and be in health even as our souls prospers." I thought There is God, confirming His word!
It's not like it wasn't something my pastor hadn't been saying the three years I'd been a part of WOCC. I guess that, after years of rain, God sent me somewhere that helped me increase my faith. I had been to enough churches and I had been through enough things to shut most people down, but, one thing I know, it is my faith in God that sustains me and I cannot forget not take any credit for that. It is He that has made me and not me myself.
Do you feel like you need a word of prayer to help you get through your present situation? I'm always here for you. Please e-mail me at yolandawhitted@msn.com . Your e-mail will come to my Blackberry and I will pray for you immediately. Many of you have sent your prayer requests and I am still trusting God both with and for you. ILY and GBY for following my blog.
" I can see a spectacular conclusion ahead for us. We WILL endure until our changes come. And, I tell you family, not only is it well, but this thing will end well. A storm just isn't a storm without rain and, not matter how inconvenient, rain produces a prolific season of growth. I see the storm dissipating. I see the storm clouds fading and the rainbow up ahead signifies the promise that the end is near. Hold on family; your change is coming sooner than you think!"
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